Archive | September, 2012

Just Say “Help”

23 Sep

    Our pastor spoke on asking for God’s help this moring. The sermon was great and very applicable to me. I know so many times, I think that I can do things on my own. I forget Who has the ultimate power of every situation. I think I can do a better job that God. Then, in His sovereignty, God will fix what I messed up so badly. God is great in that way.

    I’ve been wanting to share this for quite awhile now. I just wanted to make sure it was the Lord’s will and not Christina’s will. Well, now I really believe now it’s Gods’ timing for me to share this devotional God pressed on my heart to write last year. Everyone should feel free to ask God for help. I’d also like to encourage you to download and listen to today’s sermon.

“Just Say Help”

Psalm 30:2 I cried to You for help

   Sometimes the most simple thing we can say is, “Help.” At times, that’s all that needs to be said. God knows that it’s hard for us to say anything else. I remember a time in my life, a couple of years ago, the only thing I could say was, “Help!” I desperately wanted God to take away the pain of my past I was experiencing. I cried to Him for help. Even though, I thought God didn’t hear my cry for help at that time; He did. Now, I can look back and see God was there every step of the way. The healing through the pain was worth it. After all, Jesus suffered for us, too. Nothing I go through will ever compare to His suffering. So, when you feel like you can’t take another step-say, “Help!” When you feel like you can’t bear the pain, ask for help. When you need God to help you get over the pain of your past, pray for help. He is there; just take time and look around. Don’t be afraid to ask for help.



6 Sep

I went to church last night. I haven’t been able to go on Wednesday’s in the past because I was usually gone on the road working. I was excited to get to go on Wednesday night.

We have several different options on Wednesday nights. Our pastor does a Bible study in the sanctuary, grow groups(discipline groups teaching you how to grow in your spiritual walk); help with the children or help with the youth.

“I” had planned on going into the sanctuary. Then a friend caught me & told me she was holding my spot for me in her grow group. “I” said that I would go in there. Then I saw another friend in the youth suite. I went to speak to her & I decided to stay there.

You may be asking, “what is her point?!” God always has His will in mind. It was very much God’s will for me to stay in there. After the sermon was finished, my friend asked how I was doing. I told her the truth; I’m still struggling in my prayer life. My prayer life is pretty much non existent these days. I’m not proud of it either. It’s really bothering me that I’m not able to pray right now.

Prayer is a very key element in communication between me & Christ. I talk & He listens. He tells me things I need to know. Just like in a marriage; talking(communication) is very important. That’s how important prayer is in one’s relationship w/Christ.

Anyway, this friend listened to everything I had to say. She told me she didn’t know what to say; which was fine. There are times for us not to say anything. She told me that she’d be praying for me. That was worth more than anything else she could have said.

If you are going through a trial or valley, especially if you’re struggling in your prayer life-find you a Christ centered woman to confide in. She may not know what to tell you. You’ll know in your heart she’s praying for you. Don’t be afraid to ask for help.

Strengthen Your Pegs

4 Sep

Isaiah 54:2-4 NIV84

2. Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch  out your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your steakes. 3. For you will spread out to the right and to the left; your descendants will dispossess nations and settle desolate cities. 4. Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth.


I was read these verses almost 3 years ago. God started me down a journey of healing. I didn’t know what was going on. I felt darkness all around me. I felt like Satan was breathing down my neck. Every time I closed my eyes, I was fearful of what I might see. I had stuffed so much in the back of my mind. I thought I didn’t need to deal with it. God knew otherwise.


There’s only so many things you can stuff in the back of your mind. It was like a boil that kept festerng. One day it finally popped. I felt shame, guilt, dirtiness, ugliness, unloved, and unforgiveable. I was told that I would have to relive hurtful things from my past. I’d have to relive past sexual abuse; among other things that happened during my childhood.


I shared with some Godly, Christian ladies one night that I was going to have to go through my past. I didn’t want to do that. One of the ladies read the above scripture to me. I have never forgotten her reading this to me. I have these verses highlighted in my Bible.


When God decides to send me back into my past for me to heal, I had to learn how to enlarge my tent. I had to learn not to hold anything back. There was nothing that was going to hurt me. The people that hurt me in my past couldn’t hurt me anymore. That’s when I learned to not be afraid and I was not going to suffer any shame. God taught me how to forget the shame of my youth.


Everything that I went through was well worth it. I had a lot of hurt and heartbreak that God needed to heal. I’ve told people that I had to go back into the past to heal in the future.


So, if you’re hurting or have heartbreak in your life. I’d like to first tell you to find you a biblically sound church. Then find you a good Christian counselor that can help you walk through what has happened. Even if it’s presently happening, a counselor can and will help you. Pray for some Godly, christian women to walk beside you and to pour Godly truth in your life. God will heal your hurt and your heartbreak.