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22 Feb

Indeed, there is not a righteous man on earth who continually does good and who never sins. Ecclesiastes 7:20 NASB

I always try my best to be totally honest when I write. When God gives me something to write about, it’s usually because I can identify with the subject of my blog. I am going to be completely honest and, say, “I struggle with imperfection.” There have been days when I don’t like being human. Being human means knowing I have imperfections.

I’m not quite sure where the struggle with imperfection comes from. I do attribute a part of it due a “religion.” The religion was legalistic. The “religion” had a lot of “rules” considering make up, dress code, jewelry, etc. There were “rules” concerning sin and salvation. For example: If you sinned, a person had to ask to be saved all over again. The religion was full of a lot of hell, fire, and brimstone preaching. I’m not saying we don’t need to hear those types of sermons. I never heard about God’s grace, mercy, love and unending forgiveness.

It’s going to be very hard for me to admit what I am about to say. I know God wants me to be honest. Sometimes, when I do something wrong or mess up, I feel like the world is coming to an end. Actually, it happened last night.  I ask myself, “How did you do such a thing?” “What were you thinking?” I’ve even went to the extent of asking God, “Why do I do everything wrong?” “Why am I stupid?” I can be very hard on myself.

Just a few minutes ago, I was thinking about imperfections. So, I decided to search out verses about imperfection. Thank God for the internet. Ecclesiastes 7:20 was the one that caught my attention.

The more I read it; the more I understand it. I’m always telling women they have to know the truth (God’s truth) to battle the lies. Needless to say,  I wasn’t using my own advice. I’m pretty sure most of us don’t use our own advice.

So, I asked myself, “What lie is Satan trying to tell me?” “What lie am I hearing in my head?” I hear “You’re supposed to be perfect.”  I hear “You’re not supposed to do anything wrong.” I hear, “God doesn’t want someone who isn’t perfect.”

So, I need to slow down and take a deep breath. I HAVE to REMIND myself it’s okay if I mess up. I am not perfect, nor will I ever be perfect. Yes, I can strive to be like Jesus and live like Jesus, but I will NEVER BE LIKE JESUS ON THIS SIDE OF HEAVEN. I WILL NEVER ACHIEVE PERFECTION UNTIL I GET TO HEAVEN!!!! I must remind myself of the truth of Ecclesiastes 7:20. 

I know it’s not going to be easy. I also need to take the mistake and learn from it. I need to apply the lesson I learned. I don’t need to get bogged down in what I did wrong, but ask…

  • What did I learn from this?
  • How can I learn from this?

I don’t know about any of you that will read this. I would suffice to say I’m not the only woman who struggles with imperfection. Your struggle with imperfection may look different from mine. I would ask God and myself, “How do I struggle with imperfection?”

I have this on a peg board in our home office. This is what it says:

I'm not a perfect girl
My hair doesn't always stay in place
I spill things a lot I'm very clumsy
Sometimes I have a broken heart
Maybe some days NOTHING goes right
but when I think about it and take a step back
I remember how AMAZING life truly is
And through all my IMPERFECTIONS



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A Prayer to Battle Bad Thoughts

1 Feb

I once had a lady tell me, “There’s nothing God loves more than to hear His word prayed back to Him.” We need to know the word of God so we can battle the lies of Satan.

Earlier, I was writing in my prayer journal. I asked God to forgive me for the bad thoughts I’ve had about some people. I feel abandoned and rejected by some people. Feelings of abandonment and rejection are always a trigger for me.

Anyway, I know these thoughts are not thoughts of God. I know I have to battle these thoughts. If not, the bad thoughts will take over. I preceded to start writing a prayer.

I said, “Thank You, Jesus.” I knew right then and there this was something I needed to share. I’m pretty sure we all have some bad thoughts we need to battle.

Here’s the prayer:

Jesus, I pray You protect my mind with the helmet of salvation. (Ephesians 6:17). I pray I will be able to take every thought captive to obey You. (2 Corinthians 10:5) Give me the mind of Christ. (1 Corinthians 2:16). I pray not to be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of my mind. (Romans 12:2). Lord, put my mind on whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worth of praise, I want to think about these things. (Philippians 4:8) Help me to set my mind on things that are above, not on things on this earth. (Colossians 3:2).

I hope this helps any of you who may be battling bad thoughts. It doesn’t matter if it’s thoughts of rejection, abandonment, feeling unwanted or ignored, feeling like you’re not enough, etc. Any thought that isn’t of God isn’t good. I would like to encourage you to pray this prayer. In fact, I would read it daily.


“Joy Comes In the Morning”

29 Jan

…weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5 ESV

This verse came to my mind today. I know it was God. I had a moment of crying. I told God, “Please help me. I can NOT do this without You.” I even cried and told God “I’m sorry, but I am tired of being sick.”

I was then reminded something one of my friends told me. She said, “Christina, you are human. YOU ARE NOT JESUS. ” 

See, at times, I forget about my humanness. I am NOT perfect; nor will I ever be, not on this side of heaven, anyway. None of us will reach perfection until we reach heaven. 

I know I just have to keep calling out to God for help. I have wanted God to hurry up and move. I wanted to be over this like yesterday. Did you know the word tarry means to abide or stay in a place? According to Merriam Webster, that is one of the definitions of tarry.

Even though, sometimes it’s hard to see, God has me abiding in this season for a reason. It’s okay if I cry. It’s okay if I feel weak spiritually. I need to remember this will only be for a season.

During hard times, I believe that’s when God is refining us the most. It’s not God is being mean or vindictive. It’s a part of the sanctification process. During refinement process, there is a lot of heat that is applied. It doesn’t feel good when we’re in the middle of that heat.  So, for God to make us in His image, He may have to put us through the heat.

I am seeing the joy. I just wasn’t looking hard enough. Earlier, I sat down and wrote all God has taught me during this refinement process. I also wrote the blessings I have received during this time. I am going to try to make it a daily habit to look at this list. Sometimes, we have to be reminded of the joy we have already received.

Even though there has been weeping, I can see the joy God has given me in this process. Thank God, I wrote down all God He has done for me. I owe God all the praise, honor, and glory.

So, when you are going through a tough time, I’d say you should keep a journal. Look very closely for those moments of joy. If not, you could possibly miss those moments of joy. Remember, it’s okay to cry. I can promise you God is there; in the tears and in the joy.

As always, I’m going to add a couple of extra things.




















My Grace Is Sufficient

28 Jan

“But He said to me,“My grace is made sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV

Last night, God brought this verse to my mind. I’ve been sitting and looking at this verse while I was listening to a Christian song. The name of the song is “Need You Now” by Plumb. I was silently praying for God to give me the words He wanted me to write in this blog, too.

During his lifetime, Paul went through a lot of things. He had some extremely bad things happen to him. He was beaten, shipwrecked, went hungry, and a lot more.

Now, my life is nowhere comparable to what all Paul went through. I am not going to try to compare my life to Paul’s. Paul was definitely a picture of Jesus. Paul endured a lot for the sake of the gospel.

I want to share with you how God has shown me His power during my time of weakness. (Physical illness)

  • God has taught me to completely and totally depend on Him.
  • He has taught me to be content.
  • He has taught me about rejection.
  • He has taught me to keep my eyes on Him.
  • He has taught me people will disappoint me, but He NEVER will disappoint me.
  • He has taught me I can’t do life in my own strength. I can only do it in His strength.

Sometimes, it’s hard to see God’s power in the midst of something. Now, that I see all of this right in front of me. I see how God’s power has been demonstrated in these last few weeks. The Bible says, “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,  for those who are called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28 ESV

Through all of this, I can see the good God has done. I’m sure He has taught me some other things I’m not aware of yet. I know He is going to teach me more along the way.

I have no idea where the rest of this journey is going to take me. I don’t know what God has planned. All I do know, God will most definitely get ALL of the praise, honor, and glory.



27 Jan

“…rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious.” 1 Peter 2:4

We all want to be wanted, loved, appreciated, and included. There are times when we may feel unwanted, unloved, ignored, or not included.

Rejections comes in many different forms. Rejection can be subtle. Rejection can be cruel and blatant. Rejection can come from family, friends, co-workers, and even our church family. Rejection happens at school. Rejection happens at home.

I don’t think we realize we are rejecting someone. We all have an awful habit of not paying attention. We don’t pay attention to how others may feel. We don’t pay attention to who is around us. We; as humans, can be very thoughtless.

Yet, we aren’t the only ones who have ever felt the sting of rejection. The Bible has many examples of people who were rejected for one reason or the other. I’d like to use a few examples.

I believe Ishamael may have felt rejected by Abraham. After all, Abraham sent him and his mother in the desert. I’m sure there were feelings of rejection between Jacob and Esau. Jacob stole Esau’s birthright. Since Jacob did that, Esau wasn’t able to receive the blessings he was supposed to get. We can’t forget about Joseph and his brothers. His brothers felt so much rejection they wanted to kill Joseph.

Then, there’s Jesus. Jesus had blatant and ultimate rejection. Jesus was rejected by those closest to Him. He was rejected by His own people.

At the time of the crucifixion, all of the disciples scattered. Judas put a price on Jesus’ life by selling Him for 30 pieces of silver. Peter denied Him three times. One day the crowd was shouting, “Hosanna, to the Son of David! Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord! Hosanna in the highest! Matthew 21:9 ESV. The next day, that same crowd was shouting, “Crucify Him, crucify Him.” The people chose to release a prisoner over releasing Jesus. Now, this is rejection!!!!

I will honestly say, “Here lately, I have felt the sting on rejection.” I feel like I’ve been forgotten. I have felt like no one cares. I have felt like people don’t want to bother with anyone else.

Yet, I forgot about Jesus being rejected. I have been selfish. I have not been taking my own advice. “Take God’s word to replace the lies of Satan.” I’ve been listening to the lies in my head.

Instead me saying, “They have forgotten about me.” “No one cares.” I could have said, “God will NEVER leave me or forget about me.” (Deuteronomy 31:6). God is always there. (Matthew 28:20)  God will always love me. NOTHING CAN SEPARATE ME FROM THE LOVE OF GOD!!!! (ROMANS 8:38-39)

So, have you ever felt rejected? Ever felt ignored? Ever felt left out? Felt unwanted? Remember, Jesus felt all of these things, too. When you get to feeling like that, remember to take God’s word and replace with the lies Satan is trying to put into your head.

My prayer:

Dear God, teach me to completely and totally depend upon You and only You. Remind in the moments of when I feel rejected, You will never reject me. You will never leave me. (Deut. 31:6). You will never forget about me.(Isaiah 49:16). You will always love me because nothing can separate me from Your love. (Romans 8:38-39)rejectionrejection 2rejection 3




Being Content

26 Jan

“…for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content” Philippians 4:11 ESV

This morning, I woke up around 6:30. So, I got up and went to walk our dog. When I went back to bed, I couldn’t go back to sleep. The thought of being content crossed my mind.

So, the first thing I did was get the definition of the word content. The definition of content is to be in a state of peaceful happiness, being satisfied, fulfilled, happy.

Yesterday, God gave me a revelation. This is what came to my mind. “I must be content with the way my life is; not what I think it should be.”

The apostle Paul wrote the book of Philippians. God gave Paul the words to say. Paul wrote what was told to him. In most of the books he wrote, it reads like a personal journal. He tells a lot about the things he went through and the things that happened to Him.

Since Paul wrote the book of Philippians, I knew I wanted to use him and the things he went through to get my point across. Here are a few facts about Paul:

This is all from 2 Corinthians 11:23-27:

  • v.23 hard labor, imprisoned, beatings; many times near death
  • v. 24 beaten 5 times with 39 lashes.
  • v. 25 beaten with rods, stoned, shipwrecked 3 times, lost at sea
  • v.26 frequent journeys, dangerous rivers, dangerous robbers, danger from his own people, danger from the Gentiles, danger in the city, wilderness, danger at sea, and danger from false brothers
  • v.27 toil and hardship, many sleepless nights, hungry, thirsty, exposure to cold temps.
  • v.28 daily pressure on his anxiety for all the churches

Can you imagine all Paul went through? Yet, he never waivered from his faith in Jesus. He knew his strength was in Jesus.

How many times have we wished our lives were different? We wished we could go back and change something? We think if we could go back and change something that it would change the course of history? I know I have.

I can honestly tell you I haven’t been content with my life. Especially, since I’ve had this cyst on my ovary. There are days, I get aggravated. There are days I feel like no one cares. There are days I feel lonely. There are days I feel isolated from the world. There are days I feel like I’ve been forgotten. There are days I tell God, “I will be glad when I get over this.”

I must admit I have not been content in my situation. It’s hard to be content during times of sickness. It’s hard to be content when there aren’t many days I don’t  feel good. It’s hard when I feel isolated. It’s hard to praise God all the way through this.

My prayer is I learn how to be content in every situation. I know I can’t do it in my own strength. I do cry out to God and ask for help.

Now, how about you? Are you truly content in every situation? Are you content with the way your life is? Do you look at your life how it should be?

Heres a quote God gave me. “I must be content with the way my life is; not what i think it should be?

Dear God, I do sincerely pray You teach me to be content in each and every situation.


“The Schemes of Satan”

25 Sep


Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. Ephesians 6:11 ESV

Satan is sly and cunning. He will do everything he can to catch us off guard. His goal is to see us fall. After all, he wants the ones that he doesn’t have.

A scheme is a large scale systematic plan. Satan is very patient. He knows our weaknesses. I’ve seen it said before he knows our “favorite” sin. Here’s a quote I found on, “The devil doesn’t come dressed in a red cape and pointy horns. He comes as everything you’ve wished for.” The Bible says “Be watchful, your advesary, the devil prowls around like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour. (1 Peter 5:8).

Satan is very crafty. He is always planning a method of attack. He will attack our family, our health, our finances, etc.  His method of attack may come through an addiction or another person. I believe him to plan slowly and strategically. If he can’t get us one way, he will most definitely try another.

A couple of weeks ago, I was listening to BOTT radio. I’m not sure who was speaking. The speaker said this, “The primary battlefield for Satan is our minds.” This is very true.

Satan tries to get us to believe his lies. I know; from personal experience, I have to battle his lies-on a daily basis. If I don’t, the lies play into my emotions. If I let the lies play with my emotions, it isn’t good. My emotions will get out of control.

Some of the lies I battle are:

  • “I am not good enough.”
  • “I am not pretty enough.”
  • “I am not smart enough.”
  • “How can God love me after all I’ve done?”

Satan is even brave enough to twist God’s word.

We must battle his lies. The best way to battle the lies of Satan is with God’s word, the Bible. In fact, God’s word is the only way we can battle against the lies of Satan. We need to know God’s truth to battle the lies of Satan.

For example:

  • “I am not good enough.”  “I am God’s workmanship.” Ephesians 2:10
  • “I am not smart enough.”  “I have the mind of Christ.” 1 Corinthians 2:16
  • “I am not pretty enough.” “I am made in the image of God.” Genesis 1:27
  • “How can God love me after all I’ve done?” “He love me enough to die for me.” John 3:16 “He casts my sins as far as the east is from the west.” Psalm 103:12

So, it’s very important for us to know and memorize God’s word. It’s very important for us to stay armed with the armor of God. Being sure to place the helmet of salvation; which is to protect our minds and picking up the sword of the Spirit; which is the word of God. The sword of the Spirit gives us weapons to fight the battle.

Until I wrote this, I never realized how the helmet of salvation and the sword of the spirit was in the order of the armor of God. I now realize God did that for a reason. The helmet of salvation and the sword of the spirit go hand in hand.

So, ladies, let’s be prepared for the day by equipping ourselves with the armor of God. We must do this on a daily basis. Believe me, I don’t do it like I should. God has given us an arsenal of weapons, and we need to use them. We need to pray daily for God to put on our armor.


The Whole Armor of God Prayer
by Charles Stanley

Want to start your day of right? Say this simple prayer by Charles Stanley every morning…

Good morning Lord. Thank you for assuring me of victory today if I will but follow Your battle plan. So by faith, I claim victory over_____________________(list some things you know you will face today).

To prepare myself for the battle ahead, by faith I put on the belt of truth. The truth about You Lord—that You are a sovereign God who knows everything about me, both my strengths, and my weaknesses. Lord, You know my breaking point and have promised not to allow me to be tempted beyond what I am able to bear. The truth about me Lord, is that I am a new creature in Christ and have been set free from the power of sin. I am indwelt with the Holy Spirit who will guide me and warn me when danger is near. I am Your child, and nothing can separate me from Your love. The truth is that You have a purpose for me this day—someone to encourage, someone to share with, someone to love.

Next Lord, I want to put on the breastplate of righteousness. Through this I guard my heart and my emotions. I will not allow my heart to attach itself to anything that is impure. I will not allow my emotions to rule in my decisions. I will set them on what is right and good and just. I will live today by what is true, not by what I feel.

Lord, this morning I put on the sandals of the gospel of peace. I am available to You, Lord. Send me where You will. Guide me to those who need encouragement or physical help of some kind. Use me to solve conflicts wherever they may arise. Make me a calming presence in every circumstance in which you place me. I will not be hurried or rushed, for my schedule is in Your hands. I will not leave a trail of tension and apprehension. I will leave tracks of peace and stability everywhere I go.

I now take up the sheild of faith, Lord. My faith is in You and You alone. Apart from You, I can do nothing. With You, I can do all things. No temptation that comes my way can penetrate Your protecting hand. I will not be afraid, for You are going with me throughout this day. When I am tempted, I will claim my victory out loud ahead of time, for You have promised victory even now because I know there are fiery darts headed my way even as I pray. Lord, You already know what they are and have already provided the way of escape.

Lord, by faith I am putting on the helmet of salvation. You know how Satan bombards my mind day and night with evil thoughts, doubt and fear. I put on this helmet that will protect my mind. I may feel the impact of his attacks, but nothing can penetrate this helmet. I choose to stop every impure and negative thought at the door of my mind. With the helmet of salvation, those thoughts will get no further. I elect to take every thought captive. I will dwell on nothing but what is good and right and pleasing to You.

Last, I take up the sword of the Spirit, which is Your Word. Thank You for the precious gift of Your Word. It is strong and powerful and able to defeat even the strongest of Satan’s onslaughts. Your Word says that I am not under obligation to the flesh to obey it’s lusts. Your Word says that He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world. So by faith, I take up the strong and powerful sword of the Spirit, which is able to defend me in time of attack, comfort me in time of sorrow, teach me in time of meditation, and prevail against the power of the enemy on behalf of others who need the truth to set them free.

So Lord, I go now rejoicing that You have chosen me to represent You to this lost and dying world. May others see Jesus in me, and may Satan and his hosts shudder as Your power is made manifest in me.

In Jesus’ name I pray… AMEN.




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